I want to be 17 forever..

Honestly, I do.

After you turn 18, no matter what anyone says, things change. I don't drink, so basically there're no perks to me being an adult, just more stupid responsibility. Admittedly, I've always been a responsible person, but when you're 18, you have no one to turn to, and no one to take the hit for you. It's completely rotten!

In two weeks, my entire life can change (the parts of it that haven't changed already that is). Because, when you're an adult you have to make decisions about your life, and what you want to do with it. I want to study medicine, more than anything, and that's a decision I've made. However, if I don't get in here, in Stockholm, I need to move, leave my family and friends and live by myself in a tiny appartment somewhere else in Sweden. On the other hand, I could take half a year sabbatical, maybe work or something and apply again for next semester, but that would just set my life back a few months.. I just don't know what to do, and I really, really hope I get in here.

Another sucky part about turning 18 is how darn expensive it is. Seriously. You can't really turn to your parents for allowance, and you have to do your own shopping, so you have to get by on the money you get from the state for going to school (which you don't get in July and August). I went shopping today, or rather I needed a bikini, a pair of sandals and new knee supports, since mine are starting to break, but everything is so incredibly expensive. And that's just when it comes to regular shopping, things you can live without. When/If I move out soon I'm going to have to buy my own food and stuff too, and good food is more expensive than you would think. I'll have to resign myself to a few years of noodles, if I need to move out this year..

Lastly (or the last thing that I have the energy to complain about today): driver's license. Sure, it's my own fault for failing the two first tests but lessons, and new tests costs a fortune! And it's not even as if I really want a license anyways! It's just expected of me.. I had the unfortune of being stuck with a completely crappy instructor for a year, who can't even do his job right, and now, because of stupid rules, I can't retake the test until August, ande then I'll have to use the instructor's car, and with it comes the stupid instructor. It's all very frustrating.

The sum of it all, however, is that it would have been a whole lot better if I could have just stayed seventeen. Forever.

xoxo
Frida